Dear Puppy,
Hi baby. :) I can't talk for too long tonight either because I have a long day of driving ahead of me. We're leaving first thing in the morning to head towards Lawton, Oklahoma to see my amazing boyfriend graduate from BCT!!! AAAAAH! I am sooooo excited! :D I hope I'm able to sleep tonight... haha. I already took my evening supplements so I'm hoping they help me to rest well. I really can't wait! :D It's finally almost almost here!!! XD
I guess this letter might be kind of sad to read later... like, we're not together anymore... but maybe you'll read this between Family Day and Graduation, so maybe you'll still feel happy about seeing me and everything. :)
I picked your mom up from the airport today. She was actually like, 2 and a half hours early for her flight so she had time to spare when she got there. I was so proud of her, haha. I hope we're also able to get out of here early tomorrow AND get to the base on BOTH days EARLY so that we won't miss a thing. :) I just can't even imagine right now what it will be like... I've fantasized about this for weeks now... imagining over and over what Family Day will be like and how it'll feel finally seeing you again. There are no words to express how much I love you and how proud I am to be your girlfriend.
My mom really likes my parents and so far things have clicked well with them. My mom gave your mom a tour of the house and Dad met us for dinner so she's gotten an opportunity to speak with both for a short time. Hopefully there will be more opportunity to chat when we get back from Oklahoma. ^^; On our way up there we're going to stop by Buc ee's, that giant convenience store thing that we went to when you were in Texas... your mom said you've always hated stopping at places like that, so now I understand better why you were SO against the idea, lol. She, on the other hand, is quite excited to go. M* was the one who brought it up, and she said she would love it, so we're going! It's on the way anyhow, so that's nice. :)
On our way home we're going to stop by Fredericksburg to go shopping. Neither of us have any money but I know how much your mom loves to window shop and such, so I think it'll be perfect for her. It's a neat little town, so I'm also looking forward to it.
Anyway, it's just after midnight here and I'm setting my alarm for 7 AM so I feel like I should close. Remember that I love you and I want to be with you, even when we can't be together... home is wherever I'm with you. I feel really homesick right now, but I'm thrilled that I'm going home the day after tomorrow. <3 You mean everything to me. Stay soft no matter what! <3
Your Loving Girlfriend,
Cherry Girl <3
Tuesday, October 22, 2013
Monday, October 21, 2013
Letter: Finished Cert! Happy You Called Me First, Love
Dear *Soldier*,
I did it! I finished my certification work! :D I hope you're proud that I stayed on target and finished on time. I am really exhausted now, though, and I don't really feel up to writing a letter. It's really late at night and I have a ton of work to do tomorrow before your mom gets into town! I love you so much and I am beyond excited to see you. I keep thinking about how happy it made me that you called me first every single time you had a chance, and even when you could use the phone a second time this Sunday, you still called me! I feel so darn loved 'cause of that. :) It makes me want to squeeze you and nuzzle you and tell you that I love you-- all things I will get to do very soon!!! I can't wait! I love you!
Yours,
Cherry Girl <3
I did it! I finished my certification work! :D I hope you're proud that I stayed on target and finished on time. I am really exhausted now, though, and I don't really feel up to writing a letter. It's really late at night and I have a ton of work to do tomorrow before your mom gets into town! I love you so much and I am beyond excited to see you. I keep thinking about how happy it made me that you called me first every single time you had a chance, and even when you could use the phone a second time this Sunday, you still called me! I feel so darn loved 'cause of that. :) It makes me want to squeeze you and nuzzle you and tell you that I love you-- all things I will get to do very soon!!! I can't wait! I love you!
Yours,
Cherry Girl <3
Sunday, October 20, 2013
Letter: Cert, tasks, stress, diet, feelings on the phone, gratefulness, typing letters
Dear *Soldier*,
I think I'm gonna finish my Certification in time before I come up there! :) I finished Units 18 & 19 today. Completely. Tomorrow's Unit includes a 700 word research article, a lesson plan, and some essay questions... I am not looking forward to it, but I think it's gonna be good. Maybe I can sorta celebrate getting my cert at the same time you're celebrating completing basic training, yay! ;) Anyway, I still have to finish Unit 20... and since tomorrow is my last day working for a week or so, I have 4 session scheduled as well. Plus I need to do laundry and clean my room, the house, etc... your mom's coming and I know mom's a little bit stressed about it, so I want to help her out a bit by cleaning up around the house. She's embarrassed by this house... she even started looking at a few other houses because she wants to consider other places to live. She's decided she really doesn't like all this land after all because of how much work it is to maintain, lol. Plus she hates this house, she thinks it's ugly... too bad they've spent so much money fixing it up already, though. Anyway I don't know what they'll do, both my parents are under a lot of stress and they were fighting a bit today. :(
It's super late but I just ate a pistachio muffin (the last "cheating" thing I'll eat before back to calorie restriction tomorrow)... so now I feel like I should stay up more to let it digest... I'm not eating before my sessions, and they're back to back, so hopefully these calories last me, haha. Moving on, I know you don't care that much about the specifics of my diet, lol.
Um... I got to talk to you on the phone today! It was a real roller coaster... at first it was exciting and happy, and then that turned to disappointment when you said you didn't have much time, and then I asked my questions in a panic and wasn't really finished when you said you had to go... I felt really unsettled and bothered... I even cried. I felt like maybe you didn't miss me because you sounded so cold... and I thought maybe you didn't have enough time because you had called other people first... :'( So I was really hurt and stuff, but then I realized that probably wasn't true but I just didn't know WHAT to think and I COULDN'T talk to you about it... so I went to talk to a friend of mine who has dated at least two guys in the military and went through this TWICE... lol. I explained exactly what happened and how I felt about it and what worried me and she told me it was totally normal and that you're just THAT tired and that you really are excited to see me you just don't have the energy to show it, etc. She also said you probably had that time originally, or were supposed to have that time, but someone messed it up for you somehow. Anyway, talking to her made me feel better, and I also looked at some time stamp stuff and realized you called me first thing after you updated your Facebook post so I was feeling better, but still not great... and THAT'S when you CALLED AGAIN! :D I was honestly floored. I was so ecstatic that I got ANOTHER phone call from YOU! Anyway I'm sure you remember I asked about how tired you were and about how you felt and how your weekend was hard and everything, and getting to do that validated what my friend had told me, and I actually could hear in your voice that you wanted to see me... plus, I mean, you called ME. Again. Instead of someone else... that really meant the world to me, I can't even tell you. I feel kind of like a selfish bitch wanting all your time but you have so little to give and I feel like I need it the most... but anyway. That's why I offered to let you call someone else the second time... I'm glad I could give you that opportunity this time. And I'm so so glad you called me because it validated that I'm important to you-- and HOW important I am to you... and that's exactly what I needed to know. I am just beside myself now with excitement and joy... the way I SHOULD feel, leading up to your graduation, so I am ever so grateful and happy! I love you, Puppy!
By the way, I should tell you that I'm not planning on writing out these last few letters... first of all, I don't think I'll have the time, and secondly, I don't think it'll matter as much to you... thirdly, I can write more when I type than I can when I'm writing... lol. I should tell you that for the duration of your training I both hand-wrote and typed every single letter that I sent... Some nights when it wasn't convenient to sit at the table and write, so I just typed the letter on my laptop and then penned it the next day. Some nights I did the opposite-- penned it and then typed it up before sending it. Some nights I did both in one sitting. The last few days I've not had any extra time to hand write so I hope you'll understand and appreciate getting all my handwritten letters and I hope you won't think any less of these typed out ones... :x Either way, I'm still writing one a day!
I love you with all my heart and I can't wait to be in your arms,
Cherry Girl <3
I think I'm gonna finish my Certification in time before I come up there! :) I finished Units 18 & 19 today. Completely. Tomorrow's Unit includes a 700 word research article, a lesson plan, and some essay questions... I am not looking forward to it, but I think it's gonna be good. Maybe I can sorta celebrate getting my cert at the same time you're celebrating completing basic training, yay! ;) Anyway, I still have to finish Unit 20... and since tomorrow is my last day working for a week or so, I have 4 session scheduled as well. Plus I need to do laundry and clean my room, the house, etc... your mom's coming and I know mom's a little bit stressed about it, so I want to help her out a bit by cleaning up around the house. She's embarrassed by this house... she even started looking at a few other houses because she wants to consider other places to live. She's decided she really doesn't like all this land after all because of how much work it is to maintain, lol. Plus she hates this house, she thinks it's ugly... too bad they've spent so much money fixing it up already, though. Anyway I don't know what they'll do, both my parents are under a lot of stress and they were fighting a bit today. :(
It's super late but I just ate a pistachio muffin (the last "cheating" thing I'll eat before back to calorie restriction tomorrow)... so now I feel like I should stay up more to let it digest... I'm not eating before my sessions, and they're back to back, so hopefully these calories last me, haha. Moving on, I know you don't care that much about the specifics of my diet, lol.
Um... I got to talk to you on the phone today! It was a real roller coaster... at first it was exciting and happy, and then that turned to disappointment when you said you didn't have much time, and then I asked my questions in a panic and wasn't really finished when you said you had to go... I felt really unsettled and bothered... I even cried. I felt like maybe you didn't miss me because you sounded so cold... and I thought maybe you didn't have enough time because you had called other people first... :'( So I was really hurt and stuff, but then I realized that probably wasn't true but I just didn't know WHAT to think and I COULDN'T talk to you about it... so I went to talk to a friend of mine who has dated at least two guys in the military and went through this TWICE... lol. I explained exactly what happened and how I felt about it and what worried me and she told me it was totally normal and that you're just THAT tired and that you really are excited to see me you just don't have the energy to show it, etc. She also said you probably had that time originally, or were supposed to have that time, but someone messed it up for you somehow. Anyway, talking to her made me feel better, and I also looked at some time stamp stuff and realized you called me first thing after you updated your Facebook post so I was feeling better, but still not great... and THAT'S when you CALLED AGAIN! :D I was honestly floored. I was so ecstatic that I got ANOTHER phone call from YOU! Anyway I'm sure you remember I asked about how tired you were and about how you felt and how your weekend was hard and everything, and getting to do that validated what my friend had told me, and I actually could hear in your voice that you wanted to see me... plus, I mean, you called ME. Again. Instead of someone else... that really meant the world to me, I can't even tell you. I feel kind of like a selfish bitch wanting all your time but you have so little to give and I feel like I need it the most... but anyway. That's why I offered to let you call someone else the second time... I'm glad I could give you that opportunity this time. And I'm so so glad you called me because it validated that I'm important to you-- and HOW important I am to you... and that's exactly what I needed to know. I am just beside myself now with excitement and joy... the way I SHOULD feel, leading up to your graduation, so I am ever so grateful and happy! I love you, Puppy!
By the way, I should tell you that I'm not planning on writing out these last few letters... first of all, I don't think I'll have the time, and secondly, I don't think it'll matter as much to you... thirdly, I can write more when I type than I can when I'm writing... lol. I should tell you that for the duration of your training I both hand-wrote and typed every single letter that I sent... Some nights when it wasn't convenient to sit at the table and write, so I just typed the letter on my laptop and then penned it the next day. Some nights I did the opposite-- penned it and then typed it up before sending it. Some nights I did both in one sitting. The last few days I've not had any extra time to hand write so I hope you'll understand and appreciate getting all my handwritten letters and I hope you won't think any less of these typed out ones... :x Either way, I'm still writing one a day!
I love you with all my heart and I can't wait to be in your arms,
Cherry Girl <3
Saturday, October 19, 2013
Letter: Units Blah, Cheat Day, Football, Trip Plans, Love!
Dear *Soldier*,
I'm stressing out about all the work I have to do... my plans fell through and I'm STILL not even done with Unit 18. >.< At least, I'm ALMOST done with Unit 18 and I'm hoping my family will help me with finishing the parts that are hard for me. I really hate coming up with teaching ideas and that is mostly what slows me down when completing these later units. I only have so much creative juice! LOL
Today was fun. First I checked on Mica after waking up and realized he was doing better than last night so a trip to the vet wasn't necessary... I've witnessed him eating AND drinking, yay! Since I woke up early, though, I decided to work on the unit. Then I had to go weigh myself, be measured, and get a report (which I'm going to show you ^_^) and then do a workout. That was followed by an afternoon of cheat eating which lasted until it was time to go to the football game. I wanted to go to the game because my alma mater was playing against the school my brothers are attending... so it was a personal game for me. I was rooting for my alma mater and it reminded me a lot of being in high school. :) It was really fun AND we won! Haha! :D Mom and dad both went to M* so I'm sort of the black sheep of the family as the ONLY one who did NOT go to M*. They used to tease me for it but I was proud today since we beat M*'s team, hehe. :)
So, I'm thinking of what to feed your mom during her trip to Texas and it's been rather difficult! I think as a state we mostly celebrate red meat and lard. XD I know she'd be happy with just crackers and fruit or something but I want to show her a few special things about Texas. Luckily there are a few vegetarian type restaurants and a great Greek place that has amazing hummus and pita bread so I'm thinking I'd like to take her there. :) One of the other places we'll go is a Vegetarian Tex-Mex place! I didn't know such a thing existed but thanks to the marvels of asking my friends on Facebook combined with Google research I now have a few options in mind. :) The big cinnamon roll is a bust, however, because I called about it and they put lard in them. -_- Oh well. I'll just have to do that with you at our next Texas vacation. <3
I love you and I miss you-- even if you don't read this til after I've seen you in person-- I know wherever I'm at... if it's not with you... then I miss you. I hate when we're not together, I really do. And I always love you. Talk to you soon, hopefully! (Phone call tomorrow?! Last one!!! I'm excited!!!)
Your babes,
Cherry Girl <3
I'm stressing out about all the work I have to do... my plans fell through and I'm STILL not even done with Unit 18. >.< At least, I'm ALMOST done with Unit 18 and I'm hoping my family will help me with finishing the parts that are hard for me. I really hate coming up with teaching ideas and that is mostly what slows me down when completing these later units. I only have so much creative juice! LOL
Today was fun. First I checked on Mica after waking up and realized he was doing better than last night so a trip to the vet wasn't necessary... I've witnessed him eating AND drinking, yay! Since I woke up early, though, I decided to work on the unit. Then I had to go weigh myself, be measured, and get a report (which I'm going to show you ^_^) and then do a workout. That was followed by an afternoon of cheat eating which lasted until it was time to go to the football game. I wanted to go to the game because my alma mater was playing against the school my brothers are attending... so it was a personal game for me. I was rooting for my alma mater and it reminded me a lot of being in high school. :) It was really fun AND we won! Haha! :D Mom and dad both went to M* so I'm sort of the black sheep of the family as the ONLY one who did NOT go to M*. They used to tease me for it but I was proud today since we beat M*'s team, hehe. :)
So, I'm thinking of what to feed your mom during her trip to Texas and it's been rather difficult! I think as a state we mostly celebrate red meat and lard. XD I know she'd be happy with just crackers and fruit or something but I want to show her a few special things about Texas. Luckily there are a few vegetarian type restaurants and a great Greek place that has amazing hummus and pita bread so I'm thinking I'd like to take her there. :) One of the other places we'll go is a Vegetarian Tex-Mex place! I didn't know such a thing existed but thanks to the marvels of asking my friends on Facebook combined with Google research I now have a few options in mind. :) The big cinnamon roll is a bust, however, because I called about it and they put lard in them. -_- Oh well. I'll just have to do that with you at our next Texas vacation. <3
I love you and I miss you-- even if you don't read this til after I've seen you in person-- I know wherever I'm at... if it's not with you... then I miss you. I hate when we're not together, I really do. And I always love you. Talk to you soon, hopefully! (Phone call tomorrow?! Last one!!! I'm excited!!!)
Your babes,
Cherry Girl <3
Friday, October 18, 2013
Letter: Nightmare, Mica Sick, Units, Curves
Dearest *Soldier*,
I really gave it my all in my last letter and now I feel like I don't know what to write, lol. You won't get this until you're seeing me anyway, but perhaps it can provide some comfort to you when you're on your way to AIT and another long separation from me. I just want you to know that I want this to work... over anyone else, I want you. I had a nightmare last night that I was getting chatted up/flirted with and then kissed by TWO different men and I felt really awful about it. I am annoyed that when stuff like that happens in my dream I can't control it... I always feel powerless and let it just happen even if it's not what I want. I know that in real life it would be different at least.
So, Mica was sick all day today. He was really lethargic, slept most of the day, and I realized I hadn't filled his water or food bowls in a few days so he wasn't drinking or eating anything... I took his temperature under his arm and it was high by 1 degree. I may take him to the vet in the morning if he still seems really bad. He won't even eat treats today. :( After what happened to your mom's kitties I hope he makes it. >.<
I said I'd get Unit 18 finished today, but oh my God it's the longest Unit yet! :( It's so very annoying... I was hoping for short since it didn't include a lesson plan... but there are TEN tasks! Usually there's only like 6 at the most! I really really need to get it done in the next few days so I'm going to be focusing on getting it all done ASAP... just might be a bit behind the schedule I set out for myself. Bleh. :c
I'm going to try to get Mom to go to Curves with me tomorrow. She bought a special pass deal but every time I've invited her so far she says she "doesn't feel like going." So, I think I need to push her a little bit to get her to at least try it... maybe once she does she'll realize it's fun! I sure like going. :) Plus, tomorrow is weigh-in day... the last one before I get to see you again, so I'll be able to tell you what my total progress looks like... I was hoping for a wowing 30 lbs or something but I've been sedentary for so long, even though I busted my butt I think the progress has been slow. No matter, progress is still progress, and this is a life change not a sprint diet. :) It'll happen eventually. I had salmon and baby kale with onions for dinner tonight, lol. ^.^
Love you so much baby! Stay faithful to me, darling. <3 And stay soft. :) Talk to you soon!
Yours,
Cherry Girl
I really gave it my all in my last letter and now I feel like I don't know what to write, lol. You won't get this until you're seeing me anyway, but perhaps it can provide some comfort to you when you're on your way to AIT and another long separation from me. I just want you to know that I want this to work... over anyone else, I want you. I had a nightmare last night that I was getting chatted up/flirted with and then kissed by TWO different men and I felt really awful about it. I am annoyed that when stuff like that happens in my dream I can't control it... I always feel powerless and let it just happen even if it's not what I want. I know that in real life it would be different at least.
So, Mica was sick all day today. He was really lethargic, slept most of the day, and I realized I hadn't filled his water or food bowls in a few days so he wasn't drinking or eating anything... I took his temperature under his arm and it was high by 1 degree. I may take him to the vet in the morning if he still seems really bad. He won't even eat treats today. :( After what happened to your mom's kitties I hope he makes it. >.<
I said I'd get Unit 18 finished today, but oh my God it's the longest Unit yet! :( It's so very annoying... I was hoping for short since it didn't include a lesson plan... but there are TEN tasks! Usually there's only like 6 at the most! I really really need to get it done in the next few days so I'm going to be focusing on getting it all done ASAP... just might be a bit behind the schedule I set out for myself. Bleh. :c
I'm going to try to get Mom to go to Curves with me tomorrow. She bought a special pass deal but every time I've invited her so far she says she "doesn't feel like going." So, I think I need to push her a little bit to get her to at least try it... maybe once she does she'll realize it's fun! I sure like going. :) Plus, tomorrow is weigh-in day... the last one before I get to see you again, so I'll be able to tell you what my total progress looks like... I was hoping for a wowing 30 lbs or something but I've been sedentary for so long, even though I busted my butt I think the progress has been slow. No matter, progress is still progress, and this is a life change not a sprint diet. :) It'll happen eventually. I had salmon and baby kale with onions for dinner tonight, lol. ^.^
Love you so much baby! Stay faithful to me, darling. <3 And stay soft. :) Talk to you soon!
Yours,
Cherry Girl
Thursday, October 17, 2013
Letter: Last One Mailed! Grad Plans, Response to Cadences, etc
Dear *Soldier*,
No matter what they call you in the military, I will always call you by your first name. I got your letter today which included the cadences -- written on Monday-- so I can only assume that the letter you mentioned sending 5 days ago got lost in the mail. I'm disappointed that you didn't "feel like" responding to my important and valid concerns, but on the cusp of getting to see you again, the last thing I want to do is fight. Just know that you can't avoid it for long, as Christmas is right around the corner and I need to know how much you're willing to contribute to this relationship-- and I don't mean financially.
I appreciate that you took the time to write out some of the cadences! Thank you. They're not very comforting, are they? But I guess they're not supposed to be. They remind you daily of your role and what is expected of you. I'm thinking that the military is starting to scare me a little... it seems less about serving your country and being patriotic and more about harsh realities and sacrifice. This is just a taste of how my perception has altered since you left for Basic, and while I AM proud! I am very afraid of how this experience has changed you. I hope any and all changes are for the better and you will get the benefit of my doubts, but I am still pretty scared of what is going to happen. I don't see much of who you are-- at least, who I knew you to be-- in your letters... maybe you're just not a letter-writer but I'm just scared. I don't want you to change... I love you so much the way you are.
It is for the above reason that I have felt a very powerful mixture of excitement, anxiety, elation, and nervousness! It's hard to believe that ONE WEEK from TODAY, we will be together again! I can't believe it! For me, the time has passed so painfully slowly... but I'm so thrilled this is almost over. (Or... just beginning! lol) I really need a break from this complete lack of communication... I'm glad it's nearly over and I dearly hope they won't take your phone away at AIT...
Anyway. Let me tell you what our final plans are! Your mom has purchased her plane ticket to and from my home town. She's going to arrive Tuesday night at 7:35 pm, and then we're driving up together Wednesday morning. It's a 7 hour drive and I'm going to leave ASAP that morning (shooting for 8 am) so we get there relatively close to check-in at 3 pm. I'm sure we'll make some stops along the way but I'm praying that we don't experience car trouble... we're driving Grandma M's old Kia, which actually doesn't have that many miles on it but it hasn't been regularly driven for a while, so I'm nervous... But, I'm going to take it to Reuben's tomorrow to get it inspected and to make sure it's road worthy. :) But I digress. We've got our hotel room from Wednesday night through Friday night, and I'm hoping we get the full 8 hours or so both days... So, we check out Saturday morning, drive back to my home state (leisurely, stopping in a few cool places) and then Sunday - Wednesday we're going to do stuff in my home city and meeting my family, etc, and her plane leaves Wednesday the 30th at 3:10 pm. So, all in all, I think it'll be a really great trip, with your graduation and family day being the highlight (at least for me). There are a few other things I'm looking forward to also, like getting a "Texas-sized" 6 lb cinnamon roll & splitting it with your mom, lol. I think she'd be amused. I haven't told her that plan yet but anyway, it'll be fun. Too bad I can't feed her barbacoa. ;D
As I said before, this will be the last letter that I mail out and I hope you get it before Family Day. Both your mom and I are crazy excited to see you again. :) Also, I'm bringing you my dad's guitar for you to play and also swim trunks so the three of us can enjoy the jacuzzi at the hotel (hopefully). I think it'll be nice to snuggle you & your mom can see your new muscles that way without it being weird, lol! I don't think she cares as much as I do, though. ;) Hehe. <3 I can't wait!!!!! Ahhhh! Makes it hard to concentrate on anything & I have so much to get done before the trip!
I love you, I love you, I love you... actually there's a song-- I keep thinking about you whenever it comes on... it's not a song you would particularly LIKE but the lyrics are appropriate I think... I'll print them & include them with this letter along with a sweet picture I found that makes me hope for the kind of soldier you'll be. I absolutely cannot wait to see you again! Please remember where we're meeting... back (away from the audience) RIGHT (as facing the audience!) Since you didn't complain I will assume this plan works for you. Please head to that area when they dismiss, whether it is on a field or in a building, it should still work. I want to get to my baby ASAP! Back Right. :) Don't forget. <3
I love you, *Full Soldier's Name*. This experience hasn't changed a thing about how I feel about you. I hope you still love me just as much. You are my sunshine and I'm totally ready for your sunlight! :D
Bring on Family Day, wooo! <3
I will love you forever.
See you SOON!!!
Your loving, faithful & ecstatic girlfriend,
Cherry Girl <3
p.s. Don't push me away please, I will try to restrain myself. :) <3 Until we get to the hotel anyway. ^_^ <3
No matter what they call you in the military, I will always call you by your first name. I got your letter today which included the cadences -- written on Monday-- so I can only assume that the letter you mentioned sending 5 days ago got lost in the mail. I'm disappointed that you didn't "feel like" responding to my important and valid concerns, but on the cusp of getting to see you again, the last thing I want to do is fight. Just know that you can't avoid it for long, as Christmas is right around the corner and I need to know how much you're willing to contribute to this relationship-- and I don't mean financially.
I appreciate that you took the time to write out some of the cadences! Thank you. They're not very comforting, are they? But I guess they're not supposed to be. They remind you daily of your role and what is expected of you. I'm thinking that the military is starting to scare me a little... it seems less about serving your country and being patriotic and more about harsh realities and sacrifice. This is just a taste of how my perception has altered since you left for Basic, and while I AM proud! I am very afraid of how this experience has changed you. I hope any and all changes are for the better and you will get the benefit of my doubts, but I am still pretty scared of what is going to happen. I don't see much of who you are-- at least, who I knew you to be-- in your letters... maybe you're just not a letter-writer but I'm just scared. I don't want you to change... I love you so much the way you are.
It is for the above reason that I have felt a very powerful mixture of excitement, anxiety, elation, and nervousness! It's hard to believe that ONE WEEK from TODAY, we will be together again! I can't believe it! For me, the time has passed so painfully slowly... but I'm so thrilled this is almost over. (Or... just beginning! lol) I really need a break from this complete lack of communication... I'm glad it's nearly over and I dearly hope they won't take your phone away at AIT...
Anyway. Let me tell you what our final plans are! Your mom has purchased her plane ticket to and from my home town. She's going to arrive Tuesday night at 7:35 pm, and then we're driving up together Wednesday morning. It's a 7 hour drive and I'm going to leave ASAP that morning (shooting for 8 am) so we get there relatively close to check-in at 3 pm. I'm sure we'll make some stops along the way but I'm praying that we don't experience car trouble... we're driving Grandma M's old Kia, which actually doesn't have that many miles on it but it hasn't been regularly driven for a while, so I'm nervous... But, I'm going to take it to Reuben's tomorrow to get it inspected and to make sure it's road worthy. :) But I digress. We've got our hotel room from Wednesday night through Friday night, and I'm hoping we get the full 8 hours or so both days... So, we check out Saturday morning, drive back to my home state (leisurely, stopping in a few cool places) and then Sunday - Wednesday we're going to do stuff in my home city and meeting my family, etc, and her plane leaves Wednesday the 30th at 3:10 pm. So, all in all, I think it'll be a really great trip, with your graduation and family day being the highlight (at least for me). There are a few other things I'm looking forward to also, like getting a "Texas-sized" 6 lb cinnamon roll & splitting it with your mom, lol. I think she'd be amused. I haven't told her that plan yet but anyway, it'll be fun. Too bad I can't feed her barbacoa. ;D
As I said before, this will be the last letter that I mail out and I hope you get it before Family Day. Both your mom and I are crazy excited to see you again. :) Also, I'm bringing you my dad's guitar for you to play and also swim trunks so the three of us can enjoy the jacuzzi at the hotel (hopefully). I think it'll be nice to snuggle you & your mom can see your new muscles that way without it being weird, lol! I don't think she cares as much as I do, though. ;) Hehe. <3 I can't wait!!!!! Ahhhh! Makes it hard to concentrate on anything & I have so much to get done before the trip!
I love you, I love you, I love you... actually there's a song-- I keep thinking about you whenever it comes on... it's not a song you would particularly LIKE but the lyrics are appropriate I think... I'll print them & include them with this letter along with a sweet picture I found that makes me hope for the kind of soldier you'll be. I absolutely cannot wait to see you again! Please remember where we're meeting... back (away from the audience) RIGHT (as facing the audience!) Since you didn't complain I will assume this plan works for you. Please head to that area when they dismiss, whether it is on a field or in a building, it should still work. I want to get to my baby ASAP! Back Right. :) Don't forget. <3
I love you, *Full Soldier's Name*. This experience hasn't changed a thing about how I feel about you. I hope you still love me just as much. You are my sunshine and I'm totally ready for your sunlight! :D
Bring on Family Day, wooo! <3
I will love you forever.
See you SOON!!!
Your loving, faithful & ecstatic girlfriend,
Cherry Girl <3
p.s. Don't push me away please, I will try to restrain myself. :) <3 Until we get to the hotel anyway. ^_^ <3
Wednesday, October 16, 2013
Letter: Stopping Mail Tomorrow, No Letter, Units, Miss You!
Dearest *Soldier*,
I have decided that tomorrow's letter will be the last one that I mail. That gives a good enough cushion of time (two days or so) where you may have to go without a letter, but I'd rather that than have letters sent that may never get to you. As I said before, I will still write them-- all the way up to Family Day, but I'll just hold onto them instead of sending them.
I still haven't gotten your letter. I'm suspicious that when Dad got the mail maybe he somehow missed it, but he seemed confident that he would have noticed a letter to me... regardless, tonight I'm going to conduct a search of the house and the car to make sure it wasn't just missed. I am so glad this is almost over.
Not much else to report today; more of the same. I told myself I have to complete Unit 17 to earn a trip to Renee's tomorrow for Project Runway. Then I'll read Unit 18 tomorrow, complete it Friday, then just muscle through 19 on Satuday and finish up 20 on Monday. I think having it scheduled out like this will help me complete it on time. :) Your mom's flying in Tuesday so I want to have it done in time for that. I'm so excited for her to meet my family! :D I am so greatly looking forward to next week... seeing you again... will be amazing. I don't know why I feel so scared, though. Like... I'm afraid you won't love me anymore... or something. I really want that damn letter. >:( lol The reassurance would be nice right now.
I miss you so much and I hope that you're ok and that training is going smoothly. Once again I find myself looking forward to Sunday... the last time I'll hear your voice before graduation/family day... There's nothing special planned this Sunday so I'll just camp in my room all afternoon so I can have privacy when you call. I can't wait!!! Stay soft, baby. I love you 100,000,000!
Yours,
Cherry Girl <3
I have decided that tomorrow's letter will be the last one that I mail. That gives a good enough cushion of time (two days or so) where you may have to go without a letter, but I'd rather that than have letters sent that may never get to you. As I said before, I will still write them-- all the way up to Family Day, but I'll just hold onto them instead of sending them.
I still haven't gotten your letter. I'm suspicious that when Dad got the mail maybe he somehow missed it, but he seemed confident that he would have noticed a letter to me... regardless, tonight I'm going to conduct a search of the house and the car to make sure it wasn't just missed. I am so glad this is almost over.
Not much else to report today; more of the same. I told myself I have to complete Unit 17 to earn a trip to Renee's tomorrow for Project Runway. Then I'll read Unit 18 tomorrow, complete it Friday, then just muscle through 19 on Satuday and finish up 20 on Monday. I think having it scheduled out like this will help me complete it on time. :) Your mom's flying in Tuesday so I want to have it done in time for that. I'm so excited for her to meet my family! :D I am so greatly looking forward to next week... seeing you again... will be amazing. I don't know why I feel so scared, though. Like... I'm afraid you won't love me anymore... or something. I really want that damn letter. >:( lol The reassurance would be nice right now.
I miss you so much and I hope that you're ok and that training is going smoothly. Once again I find myself looking forward to Sunday... the last time I'll hear your voice before graduation/family day... There's nothing special planned this Sunday so I'll just camp in my room all afternoon so I can have privacy when you call. I can't wait!!! Stay soft, baby. I love you 100,000,000!
Yours,
Cherry Girl <3
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